Another quote from Husband. And it is true, since I've stopped drinking I've been excessively productive, more so than my normal productive self. There are two main reasons for this:
#1. Keeping busy keeps me from drinking. I'm substituting activities for when I usually would start drinking. This is especially needed on the week-ends when I would get bored and start drinking at lunch and continue until bed. This probably why we are in a new apartment right now. It was Thursday night I started this search and Saturday night we signed, next week-end we moved. I've also joined a yoga class and am enjoying the nesting. I bought a puzzle! Next week-end I have a packed social schedule. Busyness.
#2. This is who I am. I get shit done. I think I was self medicating on some level to control my anxiety. I've always had anxiety about free time, about missing out on life and I can't relax, can't focus. I have to figure out healthier ways to deal with stress and anxiety. When I first started teaching I couldn't turn my brain off to fall a sleep- a drink would help, pot would help, Benadryl would help...a little. But since I've stopped drinking I sleep deeper. I don't need ear plugs every night and some sort of sleeping aid.
I was thinking how small my world had become. Everything revolved around drinking. All I needed were bottles at home, a couple bars and restaurants within walking distance and a few friends who drink as much as me. I haven't even been to the pyramids yet! I've been here 6 months and haven't been to really any sights in Cairo, because it all sounded too hard to organize... let's just go and have a drink instead...we have plenty of time to see the pyramids.
I've been wanting to take the dog to go run in the desert for 5 months too, finally I am going this week-end. It is going to make Dog Face so happy. And me happy too.