I need substitution ideas because I'm riding the bus home after a shit show sort of day with my bag full of work to do over the week-end and damn it, I want a drink, x5. And a cigarette! I usually only want cigarettes when I'm buzzed. But I want to relax, shed the stress. It was a day where I couldn't complete my tasks because others didn't complete theirs, and no one showed up to my professional development session and students swarmed my office with claims their reports are wrong, unfair, etc. Ugh.
I could drink a drink and be controlled tonight. I could, just 3. But I'm not going to do that. I like the number 21, I don't want to start over. I've come so far. But this is the type of situation where solo drinking sounds so nice. It's my Friday night, Husband's at trivia, it's been a long week...me and drinking should be hanging out with Dog Face. I'm not talking to drinking anymore, we broke up.
I sound ridiculous. I feel ridiculous. My frustration at the day is turning into anger and not having a drink is one more thing to be pissed at. I need to reclaim the evening. I need a game plan for the 3 hours from home time to bedtime...