It just feels easier all of a sudden, because it is true. I don't drink any more. What seems to come out of my mouth is, "I stopped drinking a few months ago, yeah...it was starting to get away from me" for friends and simply, "No thanks, I don't drink anymore." That works for now. I think it is the right amount of sharing. I do feel compelled to add the time, "anymore" or "a few months ago" to ward off the fear people will challenge me with a memory of me drinking from just over a few months ago. And with new people recently, I don't know yet. Am I ready to be a run of the mill "non-drinker?" Or will I feel compelled to add the "anymore" to keep myself out of camp of those who have never been a drinker because of a personal conviction? It is silly that I concern myself other these things but I do because when I was a drinker those distinctions would have made a difference to me and how I felt drinking around them. Is that my audience? I wonder if that will change at some point, where I no longer use my drinking self mentality as a touchstone to how the rest of the world thinks about drinking and non-drinkers. I look forward to that phase.
-Drinking: A Love Story by Caroline Knapp -Almost Alcoholic by Joseph Nowinski and Robert Doyle -After the Tears: Helping Adult Children of Alcoholics Heal Their Childhood by Jane Middelton-Moz and Lorie Dwinell