A week ago today, I woke up hungover on the first day of my week-end...like always. But not today! I woke up at 7:30am and I have a whole day ahead of me to do whatever I want! I won't be couch-bound, pizza-eating, sick, depressed, piecing together the end of the night TODAY. And this is a 3-day week-end, I have two more mornings of waking up without an alarm and without a hangover and without regret.
Last night Korean dinner was fun. People were surprised that I wasn't drinking, I said I'm on the edge of not feeling well, which is true and that was it. Husband and I did get a little of pressure to go to Dive Bar after dinner, but I stood my ground that it was time to go be horizontal on the couch. And here I am feeling fresh for the day-Dog Face will love me for it and I will jog, cook and eat well.
I'm super proud of myself that I have gone a whole week without, and without too much pain. I know that it is early in this experiment, but my mindset helped to make it easy to just not drink. I hope the longer I go the more that time just builds momentum and this becomes normal. I haven't gone a whole week without drinking in....hmmm....I can't remember. Years?
I'm always trying moderation tricks, it was always an internal conversation: "I should take tonight off...or maybe only drink beer...or only a 1/2 bottle of white wine...ok, water, wine, water, wine, pace myself with the slowest drinker, etc." and then those plans for moderation fail. I fold, I forget, I wake up hungover and wondering how I might have embarrassed myself. Not now. Hopefully never again.
-Drinking: A Love Story by Caroline Knapp -Almost Alcoholic by Joseph Nowinski and Robert Doyle -After the Tears: Helping Adult Children of Alcoholics Heal Their Childhood by Jane Middelton-Moz and Lorie Dwinell