Last night I re-read some of my earlier blog posts and it is surprising how I have changed over 50+ days. My thoughts and feelings were truthful, but my assumptions and perspectives were sometimes off from the reality I now see differently.
I was so certain that all my friends were heavy drinkers and that no one would like that I decided to call it quits. I'm finding it to not be true. Two friends here know the details of my story through this blog and have been added strength to my support foundation of Husband. Other friends that know that I'm not drinking for various health reasons just carry on as normal with our fun. The brunch is a good example of that. Besides specific events, like the up-coming whisky tasting night, my social life isn't too too different than when I was drinking.
Another fear I had those first couple of weeks (Yay! I can look back and say that!) was about Husband-our relationship with drinking together and how he would feel about the changes in me and us because of my choice to stop drinking. A few weeks later I have no doubts about the strength of our relationship in terms of my new sobriety. Being dry has made our relationship better. And he tells me that he likes this sober version of me.
I can't believe how much love and support Husband has given me. He follows my blog and that opens conversations that I crave to have. He tells me how proud he is of me all the time, and that he thinks this is really good for me. He has said that he has worried about my drinking in the past. All so validating! He even listened to the Bubble Hour to be connected to my journey. I truly am blessed.
-Drinking: A Love Story by Caroline Knapp -Almost Alcoholic by Joseph Nowinski and Robert Doyle -After the Tears: Helping Adult Children of Alcoholics Heal Their Childhood by Jane Middelton-Moz and Lorie Dwinell