Day One Hundred and Three: Movie Kick

4/30/2015

Thanks to The Bubble Hour episode interviewing the director and daughter of the documentary My Name Was Bette: The Life And Death Of An Alcoholic, Sherri VandenAkker.

I have it slowly downloading to my iPhone so I can watch it during my commute. I've decided I'm comfortable with potentially being a "fucking commute crier." I sometimes savor having these very personal internal struggles that make emotions bubble up in a public sphere...as long as no one notices. Sounds like a fetish, right?.

Anyway, I plan to enter in a film phase for my recovery, starting with My Name Was Bette, The Anonymous People, and Lipstick and Liquor: Secrets In the Suburbs.

Maybe this will ward off the routine. I have to remember drinking didn't really relieve my cycles of boredom with life. My fear of facing boredom and doing something about it is one of the many reasons I drank, drinking made it possible to not to make any other decisions about what to do. Drinking lacks imagination. Drinking reduces problem solving. Drinking is lazy.

4 Comments

Sherri link

4/29/2015 07:43:31 pm

Thanks for the shout-out! I hope that "My Name Was Bette" touches you!

iwillstartwithwater

4/30/2015 08:47:22 am

Sherri, I feel a little star stuck that you posted on my blog! Read my next post of you want to read some details of how your work really has touched me.

Thank you for sharing your story in the documentary, you have given me another huge piece to add to my sobriety base.

And thank you for stopping by my blog!

Erin

4/30/2015 07:20:43 pm

I just watched this too. All the physical stuff is a good reminder for why I quit. The statistics about relapse are scary to me, though.

5/4/2015 03:59:37 pm

Hi, "I Will Start With Water" and Erin -- thanks for the replies! Relapse. Yes. So, I am not in recovery from alcoholism, but almost has everything they should better manage, right? I lost 15 pounds a couple of years ago; I was so proud of myself and I felt great. I was astonished to go to the doctor's for my annual this year and to discover my blood pressure was borderline high (some days beyond "borderline) and ditto on my cholesterol, which had always been great. Okay, hormones are shifting -- but that didn't account for all of it. I stepped on the scale -- with dread -- and my weight was right back to where it was before I lost weight the first time. I was so annoyed at myself -- all that work "lost." So what's my point? I'm back on the diet and this time committed to staying vigilant by using the MyFitnessPal app I use to lose weight to maintain weight.

I don't think relapse is inevitable -- but I think without vigilance it probably is. But if you were able to get there once, I believe you CAN stay there, or readjust and get back there, if you are vigilant. :-)

All the best -- to everyone (like in the world!).

Day One Hundred and Three: Movie Kick

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