It's a milestone. I'm here, I really feel like I have come a long way. With myself fully present, it's really unbelievable how the sober cumulative time adds up grander than its parts. Because it is hard to express the whole picture without the parts, here are some of benefits I celebrate today:
Sleep: deeper and refreshing. I think this has been the gift that has set the foundation for other benefits.
Emotional health: while shaken by real emotions during this time, much less despair and depression. I'm not blindsided as often by emotional ghosts and in general I hold hope.
Energy: still figuring out what normal energy is, but I have energy to keep my activity promises, energy to listen to other people's problems, energy to tackle all the new that living in a new country entails.
Tenderness: with myself and others. I feel less judgmental and more accepting of my own faults and the faults of others, especially the strong personalities at work. I have more empathy.
Curiosity: More play has enters my vocabulary, actions and mindset. There is less need to show a perfect exterior, so I'm freer to try, to practice, to fail without being a failure. I seek fun, new experience and growth.
-Drinking: A Love Story by Caroline Knapp -Almost Alcoholic by Joseph Nowinski and Robert Doyle -After the Tears: Helping Adult Children of Alcoholics Heal Their Childhood by Jane Middelton-Moz and Lorie Dwinell