I need substitution ideas because I'm riding the bus home after a shit show sort of day with my bag full of work to do over the week-end and damn it, I want a drink, x5. And a cigarette! I usually only want cigarettes when I'm buzzed. But I want to relax, shed the stress, let it all go. It was a day where I couldn't complete my tasks because others didn't complete theirs, and no one showed up to my professional development session and students swarmed my office with claims their reports are wrong, unfair, etc. Ugh.
I could drink a drink and be controlled tonight. I could, just 3. But I'm not going to do that. I like the number 21, I don't want to start over. I've come so far. But this is the type of situation where solo drinking sounds so nice. It's my Friday night, Husband's at trivia, it's been a long week...me and drinking should be hanging out with Dog Face. But I'm not talking to drinking anymore, we broke up. But I miss it.
I sound ridiculous. I feel ridiculous. My frustration at the day is turning into anger and not having a drink is one more thing to be pissed at. I need to reclaim the evening. I need a game plan for the 3 hours from home time to bedtime...
Order in Chinese food
Work on the puzzle, unless it frustrates me too much
Read or listen to Sobriety Blogs to "hang out" with sober friends.
Pet and play with Dog Face
Pay credit card bills
Plan what I will cook for the party tomorrow
Revisit what I will buy at Ikea tomorrow
Remember how good it will feel to wake up sober & bright-eyed
-Drinking: A Love Story by Caroline Knapp -Almost Alcoholic by Joseph Nowinski and Robert Doyle -After the Tears: Helping Adult Children of Alcoholics Heal Their Childhood by Jane Middelton-Moz and Lorie Dwinell