The acronym HALT (Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired) helps to identify triggers and yesterday anger definitely hit me hard while at the gym. It was hot, loud teenage boys, then loud men and the ducking thing that broke me was a fly that continued to land on me when I lifting weights: on my face, arms, legs and just walking around. RAGE. I even had to throw my bar down and take a walk so I didn't throw a weight through a window. Damn those heavy handed slow flies that just walk on you, buzz into your ears or eyes. I'm angry just thinking about it. I want to throw whisky bottles at them. It was 100 degrees yesterday and tomorrow it is supposed to be 111 degrees. There are power cuts when all the air conditioners are running, I need to mentally prepare myself. Heat leads to anger for me, and sitting in a dark hot house definitely makes me want to drink. Tonight I will make lemonade and ice tea and stock the fridge with soda water to power through the long hot heat wave that is summer in Cairo.
-Drinking: A Love Story by Caroline Knapp -Almost Alcoholic by Joseph Nowinski and Robert Doyle -After the Tears: Helping Adult Children of Alcoholics Heal Their Childhood by Jane Middelton-Moz and Lorie Dwinell