In previous blogs of mine I have stated that I disagree with the notion that I need to surrender to a higher power to stay sober. I still believe that my resolve to not drink keeps me from not drinking and that I make choices that engage my willpower. Willpower keeps me sober.
But I have had a shift in my thinking the last couple days about willpower and sobriety and the term "dry." I have been back in Cairo on my own for over a week now, long days to fill and I'm having a great time. And I'm not having to use willpower to not drink. The first day back here I poked around and surveyed the leftover food the Airbnb guest left and found two bottles of vodka in the freezer. There are also probably bottles upon bottles of whisky and stuff in the cabinet, but I haven't even thought to open it and look. Drinking isn't on my mind and I don't have to continually resist it because it is near by. I just don't. On the other hand, I bought two mini ice creams that were scheduled to be eaten after dinner two days in a row....and I ate both before they could even re-freeze from the trip home from the store. No willpower for resisting ice cream.
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Amy
8/6/2015 06:30:37 am
I do agree somewhat.. The 12 step model of being powerless over ones addiction does not suit me. I believe in core change and targeting the reason WHY I want to numb/obliterate/retreat/die. WHY do I engage in such self destructive behaviours? Etc. I did that through psychotherapy and a deep yoga practice. I've never looked back!
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I Will Start
9/23/2015 03:07:52 pm
Hi Amy,
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