Bus blogging on my way home from work. Where I actually cried. It might be my first time where I cried at work this year and it was in front of my principal. (I need some Visine to keep in my desk drawer). Being in leadership when I am a people pleaser is hard enough as it is. But to have a teacher come down to the office and literally scream at me (and the principal) over all sorts of perceived injustices made me physically ill. We had to end that “meeting” to go to an emergency meeting with the Leadership Team to learn that one of our school leaders can’t continue to work because China revoked her working visa because of her age. The two strong emotional punches in succession. I broke down back in the safety of my office as the principal came in to check on me. I feel bruised and needing tending. What to do instead of polishing off some wine? What do I read to re-center myself after being shaken?
Ways to treat myself on a Thursday evening:
Chocolate? Ice cream? Both?
Go to the park with the dogs?
Practice the viola?
Watch the Americans
Take a bath with a book?
I might try to do many of those things. Any combo will do.
-Drinking: A Love Story by Caroline Knapp -Almost Alcoholic by Joseph Nowinski and Robert Doyle -After the Tears: Helping Adult Children of Alcoholics Heal Their Childhood by Jane Middelton-Moz and Lorie Dwinell